Today I read Alex (nerimon) and Kristina's (italktosnakes) blogs about how they're trying to cut back on the pointless things on the internet and focus on the more important things in life.
So what did I do? I cleaned up my Twitter so I'm only following 12 people and I reduced my YouTube subscriptions to 25. This may sound like a step in the right direction, but here's a layout of my day.
7:30-3:00 -- School
3:00-3:30 -- Jazz Choir
3:30-6:30 -- Internet
6:30-9:30 -- TV
9:30-10:00 -- Internet
I seriously disgust myself with the amount of time that I waste each night when I should really be studying for my AP exams and actually trying to get an A in Calculus. But the truth is... I really don't care anymore.
This is my problem.
I don't care about school.
I don't care about singing.
I don't care about looking good.
I don't care about National Honor Society.
I don't care about the fact that I'm gaining weight.
I don't care about the scars my acne is going to leave.
I don't care about making an effort to do anything or go anywhere.
I don't care about writing my thank you note for the scholarship that I received in February.
I don't care about the increasing number of people who think I'm a bitch.
I don't care about how poorly I'm going to do on my AP tests.
I don't care about anything anymore.
The only things keeping me going are books and the internet.
1 comment:
1. I love you.
2. I won't respond to your comment on mine in my comments so I'll do it here: Please just always be wagging your finger and shaking your butt. Forever.
3. I know it's hard to care. But you only have to do it for a little while more. On a day you don't have much homework, let me know and I'll come over and we'll swear at foreign people on Mario Kart. <333
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